More Responsibility

Yesterday was a day of change. BIG change. Brian started his new job at Target (which I am positive he is going to love) and I am getting more responsibility in both Carter and Brian's life.

Now that Brian is working in Minneapolis, he has to (ok, so he doesn't HAVE to but it makes more sense) take the bus, which means his schedule is a little bit different than it used to be. He is used to doing everything for Carter and always being there and having that extra time with him, and now that he has a new job, with a new schedule, it's not going to be quite that way anymore. He's used to dropping Carter off in the morning but with the bus schedule the way it is, Carter would have to either get up really, really early for Brian to bring him, or he can sleep in a bit and I can bring him since I leave much later than Brian. I know this is not ideal for Brian. Brian wants to do those things, that's what he loves but this is what works best for all of us. Carter gets to sleep in, thus making him less tired, Brian doesn't have to rush to catch the bus in the morning, and I get a little bit of added responsibility when it comes to the two of them and gives me time to bond with Carter one on one (and also for Brian to see that I can handle it!). I'll also be picking him up in the afternoon (as of now) because I obviously will be home much earlier than Brian will. This will be a big adjustment for all of us, but I welcome it with open arms.

A woman at work made the comment "You amaze me, I'm just in awe of you. At 23 I never would've been able to handle that."

Whoa...Back up! Handle what? Being with and caring for the man that I love?! Trying to be the best girlfriend/role model I can be? It has never been a question of whether or not I could "handle it." I chose this and THANK GOD, Brian wants me here. I absolutely LOVE my life with Brian and Carter. Is it difficult somedays? Of course. Would I change it? NEVER. Life isn't meant to be easy, it would be too boring that way. As far as I'm concerned, I'm completely happy and that's all that matters :)